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[BC1969]

I want my mind to be whole again!
Wishful thinking on reversing brain damage!
D.I.D. is like being trapped within yourself.

For myself tonight..
I got your back!

 

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[BC1969]

I want my mind to be whole again!
Wishful thinking on reversing brain damage!
D.I.D. is like being trapped within yourself.

For myself tonight..
I got your back!

Wishful thinking onyour part.
Just let the end come already.
Let her go and be on your way.

 

[BC1969]

Off the deep end...
No. I'd rather just end period.

Do you think anyone will notice ?

No.

Good.

 

[BC1969]

They're only worried about violent people under the guise of compassion.

That's sad isn't it, that people will only "help" you if they are afraid of you

God's people...hmm.
God's people don't have fear

Come on mouse...lets take our crap into the next level of awareness.

I'm tired.

 

[BC1969]

Tick F'ing Tock...
Beware of what you wish for!

 

[worldtalker]

They're only worried about violent people under the guise of compassion.

That's sad isn't it, that people will only "help" you if they are afraid of you

God's people...hmm.
God's people don't have fear

Come on mouse...lets take our crap into the next level of awareness.

I'm tired.

1 John 4:18​

There is no fear in love: but perfect love casteth out fear, because fear hath punishment; and he that feareth is not made perfect in love.

 

[BC1969]

Is that why I am my own worst enemy ?

 

[worldtalker]

Is that why I am my own worst enemy ?

No Mike..SOMETHING in you is.

Parental Injustice:
The Cause of Violence

by Roy Masters

Crime, delinquency and mental illness, although rooted in individual willfulness and ambition, are actually planted and nurtured by culture. This is precisely the reason why nations cannot solve any of their problems. The stubborn pride of man traditionally points at the symptoms of sickness (which are the result of corrupting cultural influences) and labels them the disease itself.

Traditionally, parents tend to blame their problem children rather than admit that the offspring are projections of their own troubled selves. Parental help is rejected by troubled children because parents are the root-cause of the problem, and their "help" only drives children deeper into a psychotic state.

Let’s get straight to the heart of the principal cause behind national and family strife: People become dehumanized through the very weaknesses which culture promotes, namely, national pride, sexual pride and the pride of ambition. The effect of ego-reinforcement which we derive from effort, from striving and pushing, actually reverses the positive effects we are trying to achieve. The harder one tries to " make it big" for oneself and family, the worse off everyone becomes.

Once we become infected with the spirit of pride and begin striving for superiority, we actually become inferior creatures of habit, responsive to motivators who literally consume our substance while glorying in both our successes and failures. The pain of our loss at the hands of a motivator compels us to become destructive, to apply degrading pressures to others, especially to our families.

Pride is very arrogant and defensive regarding its culturally implanted imperfections. This being the case, it follows that the error of your way is almost undetectable (to you, at least). The next time your beloved son comes high on something or other, notice how in his eyes you will seem to be the bad guy for observing his errant behavior. Not surprisingly, children have a special appreciation for their buddies who do not see their wrongs, just as you parents have your entourage of friends (fiends, really) who accept you as you are. You may see your children’s faults, and they may see yours, but you rarely see your own mistakes, because you are all too fixated on one another’s evils and too busy judging to discern your own faults.

Sensuality and an unreasoning psychology evolve out of the fall from grace to pride. Wherever you find pride, there too will you find many uncontrollable lusts, attended by a host of sympathetic, exploiting, friendly fiends, sucking and nourishing themselves on the dying by seeming to worship those contemptible weaknesses.

When we are lost in any successful appeal to our pride, we awaken amid a world of sensuality. If our self-consciousness does not become repentance, the condition worsens and terrible fears, anxieties and guilts develop.

Primitive desires are awakened by the tempter, who then accepts the degenerating creature-self as the real man. The reason for re-emphasizing this point is to impress upon you the fact that, in order to have authority to correct the evolving beast of pride in your children, you yourself must be in the process of outgrowing your own childish pride and sensuality. Failing that, your very presence tempts your children to misbehave. And when they fall to temptation, their vile ways tempt you to be even more self-righteous and judgmental.

Pride causes some people to try to compensate their secret shame, while others pridefully flaunt their shameful nature. Those who conceal their sins form the main body of pretentious social climbers and hypocritical achievers. Save for a minority of seekers and finders, humanity is made up of drop-outs, criminals and low-life degenerates.

You must realize that any imperfection of the ego (pride), no matter how nobly camouflaged, tempts others. The inherent wickedness of your pride, draped in false piety, is constantly tempting your children to become prideful, sensual animals just like you–animals who cover up and suppress their evolving desires, or animals who openly and "honestly" express their contempt and vileness. The latter, comparing themselves with your phoniness (as you compare yourself with their wickedness), see themselves as being more honest because of their lack of pretense about being the weirdos, perverts, crooks or degenerate animals you have made them.

The default of virtue, by its very nature, presents an irresistible tease which provokes others to become beasts or hypocrites just like you. You parents shape the destiny of your children in their formative years. You set them up for conflict and tragedy. Then the educational system adds it share of cruelty. Friends and lovers tempt, too. As we grow older and more degenerate, we fall into the clutches of medicine man and welfare workers who ensure our final demise. When society has finished all its deadly work, the scene is like a battleground strewn with the dead and the wounded, with field hospitals for alcoholics and battered wives, with hot lines for the suicidal, and with murderers, rapist, thieves and drug addicts lurking deep in the trenches. Madness and horror are rampant as far as the eye can see.

Where the appeal of the ego (or pressure or cruelty) finds its mark, death enters, preceded by dehumanizing spiritual, psychological and physical changes. We are never better off, or more superior, as we thought we would be when we fell for the lying promise inherent in every ego-appeal.

Teach, tempt or challenge any child to be prideful and you set the stage for his ultimate destruction. It takes about twenty years of hard work to destroy a child’s mind, and to succeed one must work steadily at it. That destructive handiwork starts the day a child comes into the world. Compulsive parents, lacking the redeeming quality of humility which would teach them to love, cannot rest until their murderous work is done and the only "rest" they find then is in the grave.

Through cruel, inhuman pressure, often disguised as loving concern for his well-being and success, the real spirit of a child is slaughtered, and something awakens which is unholy standing in the place of the holy–an inferior creature full of fear and guilt, dependent on its corrupters for lying reassurances and motivation, even when that motivation is hate. From this point on, the corrupted soul needs a corrupt external model to inspire ("out-spire," really) the growth of the newly-implanted identity. You and your conformist children have your culture, and your rebels have their counter-culture motivators.

When you see your children following the wrong crowd, realize that it is because your hypocrisy has excited in them a spirit of prideful rebellion. Your rebel offspring is on the outside what you are really like inside. Your child may not know it because he is trying so hard not to be like you but, like it or not, he is really a projection, a mirror image, of your secret life of failure and sin.

That evil, which you fail to see in yourself (but which you see in your kids), came by way of your parents’ failure and the failure of fathers ever since the fall of Adam to Eve and of Eve to the serpent of temptation. You are what motivates you. You have merely covered your evolving impieties with religiosity, hard work, medicine, drugs, alcohol, and with a whole smorgasbord of social pacifiers.

You might well ask, "How do I regain that original innocence?" The answer is that you cannot, unless you come to understand the mysteries of pride and deception. You must yearn to know the purpose for which you were created. Then, and only then, will you see the mystery of how pride ushers in your personal downfall, as well as the destruction of your family, of nations and of the world.

Those who fall to and are ruled by deception also learn to rule others through it. Most people are dependent upon deception in one form or another for everything are and everything they have. The conforming child will cling to the lying love of parental deception, while the rebel child will cling to scum (who have the same lying nature you can’t see in yourself) for their reassurances.

Rebels have their Fuhers, hypocrites have their presidents, and the intrigue between the rebels and the squares keeps hell on earth alive, evolving to power through the warring factions.

Developing a hard survival-shell is the way every ego protects implanted sin. As an extension of the wrong, the corrupted soul defends the indwelling sin against observation. We feel wrong when we are exposed, so we think that those who make us feel bad are cruel and unkind. Like criminals running from the law, we slink into the dark theater of our minds for the velvety companionship of shady friends.

Right there you have the reason why the ruling class of seducers and corrupters has so much going for it and why it is so easy for both underworld and overworld tyrants to create legions of loyal "patriots," drug addicts, criminals, perverts and revolutionaries. Your ruined children are drawn magnetically to various forms of corruption because they need cultural reinforcements for the pride which their parents have inculcated into them through mindless, cruel or neglectful ways.

In this vast social con-game, every egotist, as he is "taken," assumes the identity of his god, the taker. Then running from his shame, striving to feel more and more omnipotent, he learns to steal. Stealing may not be wrong to him, because it fills the ego-need to feel good, like God. It feels like he is only taking what rightfully belongs to him, the king! (For this, and for many other reasons of pride, the world admires takers more than givers.) The pattern is for the taken to become the taker, just as the person who has been bitten by the vampire himself. Every ego is infected and fascinated with the lie which makes him feel as good as God, and this need gets worse as it is gratified because the guilt increases.

To be "promoted" to the rank of a taker, "king wrong" and deceiver, one must first allow oneself to be taken (fall to temptation). That is why your child’s misguided ego does not mind being taken in by his wicked friends and phony gurus. As he surrenders himself, the victim earns the right (through sacrifice) to be fashioned in the likeness of the taker. A mysterious psychic change occurs in your child as he is corrupted–with each encounter, he becomes a little more like his source. If he surrenders himself completely, " unselfishly," (as kids do with friends and various cults), he receives an illusion of perfection as he becomes one with his "god." So it comes to pass that he learns to turn slavery into a glorious achievement; descending is seen as ascending to glory. It is his giving in to parental pressure to avoid arguments, his being rewarded for weakness with a brownie button of approval, that has set the stage for this sort of thing to happen.

From the moment your child is first taken in, he will give his all to his parasitical cult leader or lover. He will beg for alms in the streets, cheat his clients and customers and turn everything over to his bloodsucking mentor who rewards every weakness as a religious virtue. All sinners worship and identify with idols in order to become the object of worship themselves. (Careful, you enshrined mothers; your sons could become homosexual in this fashion.)

One moment your child can seem to be a decent, family-centered, home-loving kid; and the next, he is the enemy. All your efforts to reform him–your ultimatums, your pleading, your being kind one moment and cruel the next–only refuel his rebellion, making all the ego-reinforcing pleasures of sin more alluring.

As long as your pride stands in the way, you can never correct children; that is an impossible feat. You can try being nice and try being mean, but nothing works. The absence of divine authority in you merely increases the pain of conflict in your children and whets their desire for the very things you forbid, hardening your rebel offspring and increasing their appetite for ego-soothing drugs, crime and degenerate, supportive friends.

If I were the devil, one role in which you find me (other than extolling the pleasures of sin) is that if zealously pressuring and exhorting others to virtue. Some, sensing where I was coming from, would reject the values I was teaching, thinking that they were thereby rejecting the wickedness of hypocrisy. That is just one of the ways I would trick them into finally accepting evil as good. Between the blind acceptance and the resentful rejection of the phony "virtues" I would be holding up and cramming down their throats, they would become mine! You see, if they hypnotically accepted my flowery words of truth, they would be unconsciously accepting the malignant spirit behind those words. See how powerful evil is when draped in religious garb!

Love never pressures children toward anything. It is really your secret wickedness which causes you to apply pressure to your children, and that wicked nature is reflected in them, manifesting in either hypocrisy or bestiality–apparently opposite extremes. The classic parental panic syndrome does nothing but reinforce the particular problem that was first hatched by parental pressure. Your frustration literally feeds the wrong you have projected into your children, providing their resentful nature with the sweet nourishment of revenge. Anyone can derive this wicked kind of strength from someone else’s struggle to reform him. Children can also feed on your guilt based sympathy, taking advantage over and over again until you feel like disowning them or joining them for relief.

It is just possible that after struggling to change them, you may end up being changed by them. What else can you do but disown or accept your weird, wicked creations? Some parents actually chase after the perverts they have created all the way to hell. Their motive? To hold on to the false security of their love. Now it’s the parents’ turn to become the victims of a sub-culture lifestyle through their children’s domination. They become super reverent and fearful of their children and of a vile system which is even lower than the social order which spawned them as parents.

Then comes the holocaust.

Baby egos come into the world inherently vulnerable to pressure and suggestible to sin. Without the protection of a loving parent, they are at the mercy of the world. For God’s sake, don’t you be a corrupting influence to them, too.

It is the pain–the pain of sin at home in you —that compels you to make your children fail through pushing them to achieve. And they will be driven, just as you were, either to the failure of success of the outright failure of failure.

Under this system, which is born of pride, you are just as damned if you don’t correct your children as if you do. You are helpless. You can only protect the very evils you are trying to correct, because what lives in you also wants to live through your children; you prepare the way for it through emotionalizing them. The pain of your own dying to others forces you to try to recoup your energy loss through baiting your child. The hell in you survives through someone else’s fall–such is the dog-eat-dog system under which we all live, making each other’s lives wretched until the day we die. You are no better than the tyrant you hate, but the excruciating pleasure of your unearthly preoccupation with each other blocks you from seeing the harm you are doing.

Surely you have seen that children derive pleasure from teasing and inflicting pain on other kids. Street creeps get the same sort of pleasure and relief from pain by beating old ladies’ heads in. Sad to say, most parents are on the same level; very few know the meaning of emotional maturity. They continue to enjoy that fiendish delight that comes through teasing and creating problems in their kids. (Children make especially good targets because they can’t fight back.)

Many people can recall being degraded in some particular way as children, and then having the urge to do that same thing to someone else. The pain of your own suffering (at the hands of your cruel parents and others) drives you to seek the pleasure of having a victim of your very own. In your formative years, you were debilitated and drained of life through tease and challenge. When you become a parent, you find yourself seizing upon the opportunity to do the same thing. The moment a child is born, everyone begins systematically eating away at his guts.

Without realizing it, you pass on the nature you inherited to your child while devouring his substance. Having fallen, you are part of a "food chain" —giving up life to your own personal tormentors and trying to take it back by taking it out on your kids. It is such a relief to be cruel and impatient that you may not see the harm in it.

Why do you suppose classic horror movies can still rivet our attention? It is because they are shocking reminder of how things really are. We are like people bitten by vampires, a cast of zombies whose reward is to attain to vampire status ourselves. And never forget that somewhere behind the scenes there is an invisible daddy Dracula, feeding us lies and security, sucking in our life, drawing all humanity to himself.

Now take a second look at what it really means to take out your feelings of hostility on others. We are victims who serve and mimic our master. We may not want to hurt others, but are compelled to do so because of our own hurt.

A leader’s special blood-sucking power and pseudo-happiness is proportionate to the mass of egos he can inspire (and degrade) through the appeal to their pride.

One can gain power through exhorting fools to dreams of power, glory and success. On the other hand, power can also be gained by degrading people. Indeed, there are many who are addicted to being punished and degraded; they feel loved and fulfilled through acts of cruelty. Either way, temptation is at work. The special effect of corruption, whether pleasant or unpleasant, is the bizarre feeling that one is becoming what the other person is. For many of us, that is the only way of ever becoming anything.

It is fairly common knowledge that a drug addict feels like a king attended by his pusher, when reality the pusher is king. The victim rarely forsees his own destruction. He sees death as life, a movement forward greatness; to his psychotic ego, the process of physical dying is a very real survival need. And so it is with all sensual experience.

People die to their systems and to their cultures, and leaders feed on the masses like masses like vampires and spiders, while Satan feeds and projects himself into us all.

For God’s sake, save your children from a fate worse than death: change the polarity of your own soul from pride to humility. Only then will you experience the divine power coming through you, which has absolute authority over evil and errant behavior. You will have the strength and courage to sever your rebellious children from the hypnotic influence of their "friends." And for God’s sake, throw those record players out of the house!

Children need authority; they can only grow in relationship to it. But false authority inflames a child’s desire for forbidden things, especially those in which temptation comes disguised as goodness and light. "Don’t" becomes "do." After that, any rescue attempt drives the victim deeper toward psychosis, mental aberrations, a life of sin, of crime or, perhaps, bizarre cult religions.

Fathers must realize that they have submitted themselves, through their weakness, to the system under which women have been since the fall of man. And men must realize that, in order to save their children from sin, they themselves must be saved from their own private love/hate sexual addiction to "momma’s" charms and aggravations. Remember the immutable rule concerning the feminine mystique: the comforter and the corrupter are one and the same spirit.

The corrupter is king!

One way or another, women are always trying to change men. But even the attempt to bring about "positive" change is really tantamount to temptation because, if the woman succeeded in her efforts, it would make her the creator of the man, a role which rightfully belongs only to God.

It is the man who ought to help the woman change and be saved from that which tempted the original pair in the Garden, through giving up his selfish use of her in her favor of love. In this fashion, woman would be born of man, and man of God, as was the intended pattern. But man born of woman inherits a weakness which call up reinforcement from his "creator" —putting her in the terrible dilemma of wondering what to do with her illegitimate offspring. She feels guilty for wanting to get rid of him, but to nurse and coddle him is an embarrassment too.

Irrational female behavior is directly proportionate to the age-old use which man calls love. Contrary to popular belief, less sex is better sex. Sex modified by an overriding concern for the woman’s well-being produces the true fulfillment. When it is enjoyed this way, a man will want less sex so that he may experience the joy of true love that eventually transcends sex altogether.

Gentlemen, you will do well to realize that your sexual desires are the outcrop of the deep and mysterious original mortal failing of pride, which gives women unreasonable power. Then evil rules through her seductive influence, reducing male children to momma’s boys, men to mice, drunks, homosexuals or violent beasts.

Full of pride and ambition, weak men cannot stand alone without the female ego-sexual support. Wrong men–ambitious men–need a mother or a wife to stand behind them; but who, may I ask, is standing behind her? The devil, of course.

In your apparent desire to do some imagined "good," you have unwittingly infected your offspring with some form of pride. Look carefully and you will see that part of the reason you did it was that your own ego was threatened by the selfhood and the relative innocence of your child. Your (inferior) ego is love and power hungry. Your childhood traumas have made you the coward who becomes the bully to try to regain respect. Weak before the strong, you can’t resist experiencing the relief which comes from being strong before the weak. As I said, we can relieve hurt by hurting others; it’s the way of the dog-eat-dog world.

Pressure education contributes its share of destruction. Those who do rise ambitiously in the social order cling patriotically to the mother system, trampling all over their brothers to get the most rewarding spot, while those who rebel gravitate to their own reassuring, bloodsucking leaders. Thousands of drop-outs fall out of the system every year into the gutter, seeking success there.

You can see your kids being exploited by their fiend-friends. But what you can’t see is that they can see you being taken in by your rotten system of friends and government. You can see what is wrong with others, but you cannot see your own folly. The "progress" of pride carries with it the seeds of its own destruction.

Survival within any system to which you belong depends on your being treacherous, sly, ruthless, hypocritical and cruel. Leader-power depends in abandoning principles of honesty, motivating others through deceit and rewarding greed, selfishness, avarice, lust, thievery and exploitation. What a criminal chain gang of command we support in the name of country, religion and business!

No matter which way you slice it, we are all taken as we take. No one really minds though, because when we are taken, there arises in us a sense of duty to our selfish desires and to our leaders, and we find satanic delight as we carry out that "duty" through corrupting the innocent.

The street order differs from the accepted order of society only in that gutter people are more open about the vile and vicious things they do for kicks, power and glory. All proud people feel they have the right to survive at any price, no matter who must pay it. When they exercise this "right" to exist through someone else’s suffering, it restores to them a temporary sense of dignity and power. Each kill feeds the implanted identity and makes it feel good. Hovering like a vulture over souls who live buy hook or by crook is yet another lying spirit, and over it, another. At the very end of the chain of human misery is some unseen, horrible thing sucking mankind unto himself. Believe it or not, parenthood is the threshold through which this inhuman system of things comes into existence.

Pain is the agony the soul feeds as it dies and reawakens with Satan’s nature. In our pride, we survive by manipulating and forcing others to give up their substance just the way we gave up ours. We have the devil’s identity and we eat his soul food. Destruction is the devil’s (re)creation. We have been dehumanized and recreated to serve a new master under a new system and we do his work, evangelize his way and receive his comforts.

This evil thing living within us all is constantly projecting itself and devouring succeeding generations. Children escape one brand of evil only to become trapped later in other ways. The Lord said that the sins (failures) of the fathers are visited (projected) unto the third and fourth generations of them that hate me.

Workers who have the simple skills to do their jobs and kids who have a natural eagerness to learn do not satisfy the lust of authorities, who need to be needed. So they pressure and tease, driven to destroy the natural order which would serve God and replace it with a system which they can administrate. In this world, death is great business.

The masses have always been debilitated and destroyed by cruel government, religion and heartless commerce. Parents come home drained by the pressures of inhuman work. Then what do they do? They take their frustrations out on their kids, laying waste their children’s souls to drink from them the life to replace what they have lost to the system.

Now the violated child himself goes out seeking to retrieve life–beating up old ladies, getting kicks from drugs, music and booze.

If you do not find grace, you will be hurt, and hurt compels you to help yourself by passing on that hurt to others.

There are many subtle forms of temptation–for example, the old mother who scrubs floors so her son can go through medical school, hoping against hope that this supreme sacrifice will gain her son’s respect. Like this old woman, many martyrs have a selfish goal for which they are sacrificing themselves; thus they end up being taken. You know the unhappy ending. As a rich doctor, the son’ s big, fat, spoiled ego feels too superior to associate with his grasping, sniveling (and yes–manipulating, glory-seeking) mother. He might even throw her into the poorhouse to live out her wretched life alone with the rejection and resentment she has been set up to enjoy. Without realizing it, mother created a cruel and evil monster; the prideful nature she encouraged in her son in hopes that it would adore her, turned instead on its creator.

By hook or by crook does the tempter kill–the effect is always the same. Whether he stands in the pulpit, exciting and glorifying hypocritical sheep, or rules as a rabble-rousing Hitler, extolling the virtues of evil, his power is gained from turning on his followers; these, in turn, fill their egos from those underlings whom they can find to destroy. Surely this must explain such inhuman phenomena as Nazi Germany and the mayhem perpetrated throughout the ages at the hands of religious maniacs. Religious conscripts are obliged to degrade others to soothe the pain of their own surrender. They accomplish this through the cruelty of forcing religion down their children’s throats and by torturing the people around them–applying enormous, unbearable pressure–in the name of saving their souls. Child abuse by such psychic methods is commonplace.

We are all effects of a cause, seeking to be causes ourselves. We are events seeking the power to make things happen. Desperately we strive to imprint, impress and affect others in order to know ourselves as gods–and, God, what destructive effects we have! We actually get satisfaction from destroying the things around us; we work like hell to break others down to build ourselves up. Whether we realize it or not, we always revitalize ourselves at other people’s expense.

Whoever reacts to guile, whether they are tortured or seduced, gives up life-force power, and that power is temporary relief to the tormentor. Then the tormentor, in turn, is tormented and drained by one still higher in the dog-eat-dog chain gang.

Untold violence is done in the name of molding good citizens, provoking more violence in response to the injustice of hypocrisy. Noble reasons may be given to justify the process, but what it amounts to is creating a vehicle, powered by weakness of people, in which the fat cats in the political and criminal world ride to success.

Two forces are at work here, both emanating from the same source. Satan tempts you to break the law on the one hand so he can enslave you by enforcing the law on the other. Now see the dilemma your children are in. Everyone who wants to help them really wants to help himself to them. Everyone wants a little piece of the action. Even when the victims do see how they have been deceived, their pride, which has grown more guilty, tends to make them reach outward for reassurance again, sinking even lower, away from the shaming but redeeming light.

You are the one who ought to protect your child from the abyss of evil, but you cannot if you are still part of the system of pride. Your "help" will hurt, because you represent the wrong type of authority, just as your parents, fools that they were, represented to you.

Nevertheless, when all is said and done, have compassion on your poor old mom and dad. Mother never knew a proper father or husband to love and correct her. How could she touch you with the correcting love she has never known? Your father’s mother set his ego up to enjoy your mother’s wrong and to cultivate it to support the wrong in him. So her ugliness grew with the power dad gave her to destroy you. Bear this in mind–your parents may have wanted to do right by you in part, but the spoiled, ignorant part of them was stronger and had its way, tempting you and feeding on your confusion.

Resist the temptation to hate your parents’ injustice and you will begin to discover how to stop drawing up violence in your own children. Innocence is your only protection! Evil cannot draw substance from or project its nature into those who have found salvation. Yearn for faith and patience, which will form a shield, a perfect force field that will protect both you and your family from the biting chills of hell. Through patience, which cannot hurt or be hurt, comes the correcting force of love.

You have just read chapter two of Roy Masters’ book "How To Survive Your Parents".

 

[BC1969]

Chris,
That was a looong read.
Thank you for taking the time to post it.
I do everything I can for myself so that I don't become my childhood.
My wife is my anchor in reality and she is fading away.
I wish I could talk to pops just for two minutes!

I just want to know why

I keep pops by the door along with the one thing that keeps me going forward.


Mike

 

[BC1969]

Is this book expensive ? I'm kinda broke.
Online version ?
Roy Masters’ book "How To Survive Your Parents".

 

[A2coins]

Theres no problem that a drink cant make worse.

 

[Flabbergasted]

Relax and take a deep breath!
It will pass.

 

[Msbeepbeep]

Mike i am so sorry all this has happened to you guys.
You need someone to advocate for your wife.
Ask the doctors & nurses if theres a patient advocate or social worker that can help get the medication she needs.
There has to be a way to get the drug co. To provide it for her. Prayers for you both.

I don't think she was trying to leave you, she's tired of hurting, and the pain its causing you.
Life is a maze, the must be a path thru it.

Tried to pm you, but my lack of "e" talents & crappy ph won't let me.


Sent from my VS810PP using Tapatalk

 

[BC1969]

I appreciate the prayers Miss Beeps.
Prayer is all that I have.

Mike

 

[BC1969]

Sneaky demons..
Tricks are for kids!
Knock knock..
Who is there ?

mousecrap..

 

[BC1969]

Oi.
A nod's as guid as a wink tae a blind horse!

Where is Freud when I Need him!

 

[BC1969]

I don't know where I am.
I don't know when I am.
I don't know who I am.
I don't know why I am.


I'd like to think that I fought the good fight..
I tried keeping my mind whole.
I tried keeping my marriage together.
I tried keeping my life together.

I'm slipping.

I'm going to do some pushups now.

 

[BC1969]

Quit whining!

 

[releventchair]

 

[DeepseekerADS]

Good one Chris, you always come up with good ones Referencing the Roy Masters video on page one....