The Insanity thread..Part Deux

[BC1969]

I don't want to forgive her.
Even if that's the only way to forgive myself.
I'd rather burn in Hell for all eternity than give her any comfort.
I mean that!
I'd completely walk away from Christ under that situation.

 

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[BC1969]

I may have only been 12 when they dumped me in that place...but old/intelligent enough to know that I wasn't wanted.

Now she wants me, because she is scared.

Good!
So was I.

 

[BC1969]

But, I have to thank her for sending me there.
I earned a wisdom that takes people a lifetime to learn under normal circumstances.
Y'all here see it as my paranoia.. naw, it isn't like that.
Ask anyone with PTSD how aware they are of.... everything!!!

 

[Billieg]

As if the season wasn't rough enough, now the Queen of the Narcissists is dying..my mother!
She keeps calling.
I don't answer.
I can't.
I won't.

She can now know how it feels to be abandoned!...

I know how you feel. My mom & dad abandoned us and my mom only loved my dad. When she was 89 I got a call that she couldn't take care of herself anymore. I went to see her and she was as nasty as ever. I had a choice. Leave and try to forget or take care of her. She took care of me for the first 12 yrs although not nicely but I felt I owed her something. I got her an apartment in a retirement home close by and my wife and I took care of her needs. She died in April at 92 yrs old. I can now feel like I did something and gave something back. I didn't turn my back to her like she did to me. It was hard but I sleep at night. Good luck with whatever choices you make.

 

[BC1969]

I've put so much thought into it.
I've cried over it.
I certainly don't want to be in the situation of unsaid words like my pops and I.
I appreciate you taking the time to post on my...my random thoughts thread.
More like the things that cause me emotional pain.

I rely on the random kindness and thoughts of relative strangers for therapy.
Most ignore me.
Most probably think I'm a nutcase.
If I were an unstable mindcase..the local deputies wouldn't go plinking with me.
I may be a bit intense as they say...but on the right side of.. what's right.

 

[BC1969]

Whatever you do,..Just don't ever, ever feed me past midnight..

 

[Msbeepbeep]

Only you can make that decision.
I'm not judging.
Just letting you know i'm praying for you, what ever is best for you.

I'm dealing with life stuff of my own.


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[worldtalker]

I've put so much thought into it.
I've cried over it.
I certainly don't want to be in the situation of unsaid words like my pops and I.
I appreciate you taking the time to post on my...my random thoughts thread.
More like the things that cause me emotional pain.

I rely on the random kindness and thoughts of relative strangers for therapy.
Most ignore me.
Most probably think I'm a nutcase.
If I were an unstable mindcase..the local deputies wouldn't go plinking with me.
I may be a bit intense as they say...but on the right side of.. what's right.

If you don't control your emotions..someone else will.

 

[BC1969]

I've been asked, what is it like to have co-conscious D.I.D.
..
(Sigh)
Imagine taking 20 children to a vegan restaurant and telling them to pick something to eat...by themselves!
In a timely, peaceful manner..
Best of luck to you and your sanity!

 

[BC1969]

Y'all gonna have to stop trolling my kid brother.
Who's address people have been driving past...

So what..I manipulated a few people into thinking that I am someone else.
So what!
Paybacks are meant to be effective!
Thanks for trolling him..for me!!

 

[BC1969]

Chris, RC and miss beeps..I can't respond properly at night.
I'm sorry.

 

[BC1969]

For those push everyone away parts of my mind!

 

[BC1969]

For myself..
For my family here on Tnet...
I understand!!

 

[BC1969]

Is there anyone else on these forums who has Eidetic memory ?
A slim hope.
I've only met two others.

 

[BC1969]

 

[BC1969]

If you don't control your emotions..someone else will.

I don't know if people understand that exactly..but I understand now!

 

[releventchair]

Is there anyone else on these forums who has Eidetic memory ?
A slim hope.
I've only met two others.

I can recall 3 years of age quite vividly.
It's much later in life I did my best to erase.

Your mother relationship aside.
I don't have much to say when some one is overwhelmed and I'm not involved in their decision making. And for most folks , I don't have any desire to be involved in their decision making based upon what they feel they can cope with regarding a child.

 

[worldtalker]

I don't know if people understand that exactly..but I understand now!

People know exactly what buttons to push,with me this is what they get!

 

[BC1969]

What ? Shut down ?
Don't do that!
That's what keeps me rooted in the past!
Don't ever quit Chris!

 

[BC1969]

Chris...an old McCoy cookie jar.
He'll cheer you up!