When/if you expeirience it, nothing will ever be the same. But just as life/death/life is a great paradox, so can be these experiences.
I guess I was lucky. I thought I was having a stroke actually, guess I just burning out all the "bad" brain cells.

What I was left with, is something indescribable, reckoned like unto, living waters.
If you have ever been there, you would possibly enjoy reading, The Cloud of Unknowing author unknown(old 14th century monk).
I found/find it and alot of other good reads at the sacred-texts dot com site.