I will keep you in my prayers, it is going on already almost a year since I lost my dad, and yet I am not sure how it could be that long already. One tends to loose track of time when you are lost in a fog, and pretty much taking it day to day. Knowing what both my parents suffered, and knowing that they wouldn't be in pain anymore was something I had to remind myself of daily since they have died. Yet going on without someone so important in your life is not easy to do. Somedays the memories make me smile and feel good, and other days the same memories reduce me to tears. You fought a long hard battle just as your wife did, and now you will continue to fight a battle coming to terms with the many changes in your life. It is not an easy road, and it will leave you forever changed. My heart goes out to you and I know so many out there will reach out to you and offer you advice, and sympathy and sometimes the good gestures may seem to suffocate you. Know it is all done with love, and that their hearts are in the right place, but no one truly knows what to say or do to help at times like this. You have to find your own center something to grab onto like a life raft that will keep you anchored. It could be friends, family, work, a project, or for me it was metal detecting. I started detecting 7 years ago when my mom had cancer, it took my mind off of what was happening and many times just grabbing the detector for an hour or two heading out alone, gave me time to clear my head and as frustrating as digging pull tabs were, it also relieved stress and anxiety. Somehow between the past 7 years going through this with both my mom and dad back to back I found a whole new part of myself I did not know existed and many great friends, and a life long adventure that is truly something for just myself. When I am out there now, I am not mom, wife, worker, or any of the other many hats one wears, I am simply Dawn and finding just me has been a far greater treasure than any gold I will ever dig. I hope something I have said helps in at lest some small way, hang in there and God Bless!