Re: Tom's post - #80:
Tom, I know nothing about any "eastern beliefs". Nothing. I haven't studied them; I haven't discussed them; I haven't practiced them. All I know for certain is, there is no one belief on the planet that covers everything - and that includes Christianity. I grew up Christian, but lost faith after being repeatedly raped when young. I wanted to believe after that, but couldn't. It's these "mystical things" that you speak of that have again, after MANY years, convinced me that God truly does exist. I spent my life torn between faith and actual experiences, as I could not understand how the two could possibly mesh or be associated in any way. Well, I get it now - not enough to explain it, but I get it now.
There's a LOT more to life, faith and "The Beyond" than I can possibly understand. My recommendation would be to stop nay-saying and accept the fact that you don't have all the answers, either. Nobody does. That's by design.
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I could go on and on and on for several days, talking quickly, and not repeating myself in order to cover everything. But my last remaining brain cell just can't handle that kinda processing anymore.

All I know is, the majority of what came to me during those weeks/months was meant "for me"; for my own peace of mind. Did it come
from me? From my subconscious? I seriously doubt it!! I know we only use a portion of our brains, but I'd be
THRILLED if my mind could process THAT amount of information!! You can think me a quack if you choose - I really don't care. Also, I'm not here to try and convince you of anything. That's not my place. All I can ask of you is to allow me my beliefs, as I allow you yours. So long as the two do not conflict, then everything should be OK....provided we don't return to the Salem Witch Trials any time soon!
It's comments like your last post that kept me quiet throughout my life - the fear of being looked upon like a freak or something. And yet, now that I understand that the Bible's teachings and what I've known/experienced are actually the same thing, I no longer have that fear. Actually, I crave to understand more!! Sadly, nothing more is necessary, so nothing more comes. And that suggests that it does not come from within. I want more than anything to tie together some things; so much so that I have dwelled on them for days sometimes. But I don't make something out of nothing, like you were suggesting before. That's not me. Oh, I have my share of crazy thoughts - don't get me wrong! But you don't know me, and I certainly have never been like the status quo. Does that make me special? Nope, just makes me "me". Sure would have been easier to go through life without all this stuff, but in the long run, I'd rather live with my eyes open, regardless of what I see.
**NOTE**: Please to not "quote" this post. I posted it here for you few to read, but I wish to edit out some of the more personal things at a later time. I cannot do that if you quote it.
**Hey guys, thanks for not "quoting" the post. It has now been modified with where I'd like it to be in the Tnet Archives. Thanks again!!
