That drink existed in your
old life BC..that is now history.
When you feel that urge, ya gotta tell yourself: "I Don't do
that any more..that is all in history."
You got a new life now, and these feelings you're having will
get smaller and smaller every day. One day at a time, one hour,
or even minute at a time if that's what needs to be.
Bro, perhaps much the same as you, I have very few good memories
from the past 50 years, and don't remember much from the 10 years
before that.
When I was getting sober, I had the same issues trying to sleep. Bad
dreams out of the past.
So, I made up some new memories...
I envisioned myself as a young man again, and that I had decided
to live alone and off-grid, deep in the wilds of Alaska. If ya think about
it, there's a hellofa lot involved with that kind of lifestyle. Picking a spot
to build a cabin..then figuring out how I wanted to build it. Square log,
round..or scribed?
A million other considerations, too. Animals, firewood, survival, etc.
And yeah...it was a new life so my cabin was alcohol and death-powder free.
Anytime my mind started to wander I'd bring it back to the task at hand.
No, it's not real and never will be, but building the "BelongaMike" cabin
sure got me through some rough times.
..
Right now you're a free man...stay that way..it's worth the fight.
