I feel for you we lost our Granddaughter to a brain tumor, It made me question my faith, I understand the turmoil your life is in, it was 2 years plus that we dealt with it and then we lost her, then we lost her Daddy to a motorcycle accident, it all takes time to heal and NO you will never be over it or get past it, but you will learn to live with it. Although it will not be the dream life you had hoped, or dreamed of, you will move on, but that doesn't mean your wife's time with you was a loss, as you had found your love and were granted some time with an Angel God needed back. Truly do feel your loss and wish you well. Covid is now taking a toll on our family we have had 2 deaths from it recently a brother in law and a cousins wife, stay strong and don't let your health go by the wayside. There are others who need you, your TreasureNet family is one. Sincere condolences.