Good on ya Drywallman for putting the things down. They are the worst addiction
there is, and quitting ain't for sissies!
I couldn't take Chantix as it seemed to make me aggressive and short-tempered,
so I dropped it after 5 days and went with the patches. I was able to quit for an
ENTIRE YEAR...from Sept. '10 to Sept. '11.
By the end of that year I was a complete arse, grumpy all the time, and starting
big arguments with my wife over absolutely nothing. Since it had been a full 12 months
since I had quit, I never even considered that it was the lack of the cig's chemicals (whatever
they are) that had me on the edge of sanity. I had started taking a 40mg. "happy pill" every
day, but still felt "on-the-brink" of losing it. Had a big blow-out with the wife one day in
Sept. '11, (again, over pretty much nothing), my gut was telling me that I was way out-of-line,
so I decided it would be best if I went somewhere and chilled out for a bit.
Stopped at a local market and bought a pack, smoked 2, and before I knew it I was
back to being my good old mellow self again. Called the wife and talked to her about it for awhile,
mostly apologizing for being such an asshat the past year. Apologized to her also for starting
smoking again, but she could already hear the positive difference in my attitude, and we
then knew that was what my problem had been the entire time.
Was it the best "healthy" choice to make? Hell no, but it saved my marriage and much,
much more.
We haven't had a sharp word with each other since. Although I am well aware that
I will die sooner as a result of smoking, my quality of life is MUCH BETTER at this point with,
than without. "Quality of life" is what I live for, and yes, there is a price to be paid.
Not a one of us is guaranteed even another minute of life, and sometimes hard choices have
to be made. Got a bunch of crap wrong with my body...Bi-Lateral Meniere's (it's an SOB!),
Diabetes II, Thyroid disease and a couple more. No cure for the Meniere's, but I take all the
right medications every day for the others, and my A1C is always perfect.
As for losing parents, I lost both of mine due to smoking related causes. Still, both
were in their late 70's, and had lived the life they chose...and lived it to the fullest. I
plan to do the same, and when I die, I die, but until then I'm gonna Carpe' the hell
out of every damn Diem!
Still, I am no supporter of smoking, AT ALL, and I'm constantly telling young
people not to start, or to stop now while they still can. I've made my decisions, and
have to live with them, but if anyone wants to quit you've got my 100% support!